Mea - Year 4

In 3 months time, it will be my 5th year in Motherhood. Geez.. I couldn't believe it I've made it this far. Mea currently going to a nearby Chinese kindergarten and in less than a year she can write cute Chinese stuff and speak a little bit of it. Well, she's been busy. School in the morning, tuition in the afternoon. Soon, ballet and piano lesson. At first it was hard seing her so busy, unlike before, she'll have her nap twice a day. But looking at her now, made me so proud of her. Making busy as her daily routine and so mature. Some time I forgot that she's only four and already know her daily schedules. Although, she still need me to remind her. But that just it. I remind her and in a minute, everything is done. Getting ready to schools, getting ready for classes, home works, and tidying up her room. 

I often asked myself, am I being a good mother? With me partying and all the stuff going on around me and Mea... Am I giving enough time for her? Am I giving enough attention for her? Am I doing the right thing? Say the right thing and all? Well, I don't know. I don't care about what people say. All I know is that I want her to grow up be a good human being, able to survive on her own when I'm gone. Next Monday she'll be  sitting for her Final Exam. Wow... that makes her sound such a big girl! She showed me all her trial exam result. She got 100% in all 4 subject. Heheehehehhehe.. Mommy's so damn happy! More I learn about her every day. This is the best part of motherhood. Everyday is an achievement - well, until they start getting in to trouble I suppose...

Mea - she's definitely a fast learner; and copier I supposed. Kids brains are like sponge isn't it? She very persuasive and tricky. At the same time, very sweet - verbally and morally. :) I mean, unlike me, she won't tell you directly if she don't like something or forced to say no. Instead, she always find her own word to tell you without hurting your feelings. Well, this I found out when she was 2. Impressive? To me atleast. 

I ever asked her.." Mea, what do you wanna be when you grow up?" "First, Mea wanna be Princess, then Tinkerbell, then Doctor. Last skali... Mea nak jadi Kuceng...Miowww...!" Owh...Dhameaaaaaa.....